Why can't I just stop thinking about you? It's more than 3 years since we broke up but to think that sometimes you just randomly pop in my head? Am I bitter or do I still love you that much? All these questions I cannot answer myself, maybe my friends can answer this or maybe not. Many questions to answer but so little people to tell this to.
Because I have a new love and I don't think that she will appreciate that I still keep thinking about you, this ruins my integrity to her and to her friends but still, I can't stop this feeling of guilt I feel when I see your name randomly wherever I go around or home from the city.
If I could just turn back time- I'm sure all of you did something stupid in the past and just want to undo that mistake- but alas nobody can erase or change what happened in the past. All I want back then was for it to be forgotten and buried and comeback to our happy and worthy relationship. But no, you just have to get even with me by giving it back to my two folds. It just hurts my ego so much because you just have to be with some else when all I want is you and nobody else around but that can't happen because of our studies. I stayed behind where home is closer and you have to go to the bustling city where people there are much more liberated.
I know that the time will come that your attitude will change especially because of your new friends there. I may not be with you but I can't help it but wait for you when you come back home for your vacation and just want to spend this time with you everyday even when my parents lecture me because I was with you the whole day from morning till afternoon.
Well this is just me but I think i don't want another LDR (Long Distance Relationship) because this just proves that even how much you love that person when you can't see that person for months on end the spark just keeps getting dimer and dimer like a flashlight almost drained of its batteries.
Just as loud as fireworks our relationship started with a bang it didn't ended with a bang but a cold shoulder you gave me when you found your "one true love". Its just utter disgust to me when you said those words to me because I know that you are just hurting me by being with someone. I can't prove how much I loved you back then because our only means of communication was through texting and calling you and that changes the fact that you can't tell that I'm telling the truth or not because we're not eye to eye and can't feel the presence of each other.
Till next time...
Pyro Thiry-One
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Heart Aches
Heart aches are part of relationships whether you like it or not you'll get hurt when you're in a relationship. Some people say "I'll never get hurt because I love this person." NEWS FLASH!!! Some relationships weren't meant to be.
I was surprised myself when I got into this relationship when all of a sudden it ended not just silently but with a bang. I couldn't eat can't concentrate on what I'm doing because I couldn't stop thinking about her. Playing our song and just putting it on repeat so it would just play when I go to sleep and when I wake up to keep reminding myself the good times we had....
Well I realized now that every good thing has an ending. Do you know what I did? I just kept moving on until I forget that part of my life which by the way sucked when that relationship ended. I thought before we broke up that our relationship was solid but NO... some people just had to take her away from me. I just hate those people but I realized that those people were tests on how really strong our relationship is; I guess you can say that our relationship were bricks without cement holding it down and is just waiting to fall apart.
But then again that's life. Some end and some are born. But I still think of that person which broke my heart still wanting to be with her ( how stupid of me don't you think? XD) but that's love; taking away on your ability to think and just hoping for a miracle to happen.
Who am I kidding? It takes two to tango you know. You can give all your love to that person but you still need that person to love you back for the relationship to work.
Well this is where I end. Til' the next time when I have good to tell you... ^_^
I was surprised myself when I got into this relationship when all of a sudden it ended not just silently but with a bang. I couldn't eat can't concentrate on what I'm doing because I couldn't stop thinking about her. Playing our song and just putting it on repeat so it would just play when I go to sleep and when I wake up to keep reminding myself the good times we had....
Well I realized now that every good thing has an ending. Do you know what I did? I just kept moving on until I forget that part of my life which by the way sucked when that relationship ended. I thought before we broke up that our relationship was solid but NO... some people just had to take her away from me. I just hate those people but I realized that those people were tests on how really strong our relationship is; I guess you can say that our relationship were bricks without cement holding it down and is just waiting to fall apart.
But then again that's life. Some end and some are born. But I still think of that person which broke my heart still wanting to be with her ( how stupid of me don't you think? XD) but that's love; taking away on your ability to think and just hoping for a miracle to happen.
Who am I kidding? It takes two to tango you know. You can give all your love to that person but you still need that person to love you back for the relationship to work.
Well this is where I end. Til' the next time when I have good to tell you... ^_^
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